#also go read that journal it's seriously amazing

[genderfluid-culture-iss]

for the baby genderfluid tips!!

this could just be me lmao, but DO NOT donate your fem clothes if you feel masc for longer than usual. or vice versa.

keeping a gender journal is something that can be really helpful to actually look back on and see how it changes (and also have proof of fluidity for when you begin to think "hmm actually im just a trans girl. nothing else." no, you probably aren't. you felt completely boy/nonbinary/etc just a month ago, and thats okay.)

basically it can be really hard to embrace that your gender is not static, especially if your gender stays stable for a slightly longer period. it took me so long to stop rotating between "im a girl always" "no, im a boy always" "actually, im nonbinary always" to just admit im genderfluid.

also, make genderfluid content. you don't have to show it to anyone, but sometimes it can really help to make poetry or art or write a story about being fluid and your experience in particular. i have an easy avenue for this since i write fanfiction (haven't published any of it yet lmao) and i just hit my favorite characters with my genderfluid beam and go nuts

follow people who are genderfluid, read genderfluid books, maybe join a genderfluid discord server (there are barely any, so actually maybe make one), try to make genderfluid friends. you are not alone, even though it sometimes feels that way.

if you have plushies or anything similar, make them genderfluid. i have a genderfluid squishmallow who i use she/they pronouns for, and a little husky that switches between he/she. idk it just helps sometimes lol

some of us change gender daily, or multiple times a day. some of us change gender only a couple times a year, or even less. we're all different and that's fine.

tips for presentation:

if you have a day when you can't figure out gender, go neutral clothing-wise

take little things to ease dysphoria if you switch when you're out somewhere (ex. lipgloss, eyeliner, leather bracelet, etc)

if you can, get pronoun pins. seriously, get pronoun pins (or a colored bracelet for subtlety or if you're not out). you can wear multiple at a time, you can switch them whenever you need to. you aren't a burden if your pronouns change. you don't have to stick to they/them to be easy for people.

if you can, get a versatile hairstyle that you can make suit your gender no matter what. if you cant, try to get a hairstyle that makes you the least dysphoric overall.

if you are organized enough, separate your clothes based on gender/what you feel comfy wearing on different days. do not pressure yourself to fit stereotypes. some people can only feel comfortable in skirts when theyre boys, so they only wear skirts on boy days. do what works for you.

it's kinda complicated, but if you can expand your vocal range to sound more fem or masc depending on how you feel, it can help. alternatively, vocal train to make it more androgynous.

keep makeup wipes with you in case you need to take it off part way through being out. basically, make it as easy as possible to be able to change/tweak your presentation if necessary.

this could just be me, but having lots of hoodies in different colors and styles will save your life

sometimes you might have "blender days", which is what i call it when your gender feels like its in a blender in a bad way and you can't tell at all what it is, everything feels wrong, it's changing like every 10 minutes, etc. tbh on these days all i can do is put on sweats and a hoodie and feel dysphoric. listen to music if it helps. do a hobby.

non-clothing items can help a lot. a blue tshirt and jeans can be whatever you want it to be based on what you wear it with. (ex. sneakers/ballet flats, leather bracelet/sparkly necklace, baseball cap/eyeliner)

and lastly: YOU ARE AMAZING. keep being you, keep being incredible, and know that being genderfluid is a gift. be proud to be who you are, have fun, know that you are unique and special and wonderful!! we're ever-changing, and that's awesome. you are precious. i love you.

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dont wanna link my tumblr, but my name is kiley if you want to attach a name to this!

Okay this is a lot more than I was expecting LMAO /pos

Thank you so much for this Kiley <33 I’ll start working on a masterpost with links to all this.

[eiraeths]

do you guys want some of my cod 141 headcanons you’re getting them anyways

SOAP

-puts stuff in his mouth a lot to hold it when he runs out of hands (this includes when he’s making explosives, it stresses everyone out)

-gets cute aggression and bites people

-will also bite in a fight

-has bits and pieces of rubble from explosions that he thought looked pretty

-is feral, like he takes a hit to the face during a spar and grins with blood trickling into his mouth

-had a graffiti phase as a teen that never fully left and because of it he writes in all capital letters. this is great when they need something written down where no one can read it. (the 141 probably had a meeting where they went over how to read his handwriting)

-has dreams so realistic he wakes up confused wondering if it was a memory he forgot about even if it didn’t make sense

-military grade anger issues

-never fully grew out of his punk phase

-his childhood room was full of road signs and traffic cones

-is actually a hardass when it comes to training recruits (i think the proper term for privates in the sas is troopers but im calling them recruits cause that seems to be the term everyone uses)(everyone thought his bright attitude meant that he’s laid back and easygoing. no. he’s not. yall ever seen those videos of drill sergeants coming up with the most creative insults? thats him)

-randomly says “i am normal and can be trusted around military grade weapons”

-his journal from the og games is a must in the remaster sorry i don’t make the rules

GHOST

-can play guitar super fucking well, im talking full on fingerstyle ballads

-major staring problem, if he doesn’t want to talk to someone he’ll stare until they go away. sometimes stares at people for no reason. also stares when he wants something. he’s always watching.

-would be interested in getting into blacksmithing if he didn’t grow up poor and hates spending money on himself that isn’t out of necessity (seriously you need like 30k to start a forge)

-can and will obsess over damascus patterns in blades (i feel like his favorite pattern would be fish bone or those really complicated mosaic patterns. he gets soap into it too by showing him fireball patterns)

-never grew out of echolalia and because of this is amazing at mimicking noises (he mimicks smoke alarm battery low noises and phone chimes to troll people sometimes.)

-road rage, but its quiet fuming comments that make you grip the oh shit handle for dear life (“you better turn off your fucking highbeams or i can’t be blamed for the head on collision that’s about to happen”)(no one can tell if he’s serious or not)

-hates tin foil, hearing it or touching it makes him clench his jaw because it feels like he can feel it in his teeth

-secret sweet tooth, but it comes and goes. sometimes he’s disgusted by anything sweeter than white bread and other times he can fuck up an entire box of lil debbie cakes

-can hand sew efficiently and fast as fuck

-his favorite type of blanket is a heavy quilt

GAZ

-is aggressively hydrated and is one of those people who carry around those big 128 oz water bottles

-gets competitive over karaoke (it took him months to convince everyone to join and he only got the idea after finding out soap wanted to be in a band as a teen and that he spent days learning how to properly vocal fry)

-says WOO! when he’s super fucking excited (will throw his arms up as well if soap is around because the two of them are an echo chamber of emotion)(the WOO! might actually be canon theres a voice line in warzone)

-probably the most up to date on modern fashion trends (get this man a long cashmere coat he deserves it)

-he does own a bedazzled cap he found at a gas station though (it’s hideous)

-elaborate skin care routine (he’s conned everyone to have some sort of routine. especially ghost. he got so concerned when it hit him that ghost was always wearing the eyeblack)

PRICE

-listens to black label society (i won’t budge on this its not even a head canon to me anymore its fact it was revealed to me in a dream)

-plays solitaire (he’s a very high level and it took him less than a year to get there. no one knows where he found the time to play for that long)

-drives a manual and shames people who don’t know how to work a stick

-literature nerd (im talking all the classics and philosophy books this man can get his hands on)

-discovered tennessee moonshine and has thought about it ever since

-smacks people on the back of the head when they’re doing something stupid

-if anyone makes a negative comment on his facial hair he gives them the dirtiest side eye

GEN/MULTI

-gaz and soap carry those big contractor waterproof sharpies and leave gaz was here or soap was here everywhere they go (this stemmed from soap’s graffiti phase and gaz turned it into a competition. they once got into a competition on who could leave the most signs until price called them muppets and confiscated their sharpies)

-ghost put soap in air jail once, it was very effective

-gaz and soap go to the gym together and take photos in the mirrors after they’re done (somewhere there’s a photo of the time they got ghost to join and they even got him to flex an arm)

-ghost and soap are professional assholes to each other.

-none of the 141 are allowed play card games and gamble with each other because they’re all dirty charlatans

-price tried to stop smoking only once and carried around gum and peppermints. ghost stole the peppermints and soap wouldn’t stop asking for gum

-gaz and ghost are the only ones who really try to adhere to the lights out rule. price and soap can be seen drinking coffee throughout the day

-all of them can hold a grudge for life

-ghost clears his throat loudly when any of them smoke by him. or stares. depends on the say

-if any of the smokers see another outside smoking and decides to join them it turns into a drawn out conversation about the most mundane topics

-the 141 can have full conversations of pure sarcasm nons

[calangolengo]

I am asking for HC for Mute Dipper or Little or Big Dipper AU's. These Gravity Falls AU's are interesting.

You ask, you get it!

I had never thought of a mute!Dipper anes because I always kind of hoped his parents would be responsible enough not to let it happen, but here are some headcanons I made for this scenario.

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Dipper was born the younger twin and that seemed to have been the rule of his life for as long as he could remember, the youngest, the smallest, the slowest, the most antisocial. Not being the most talkative ended up quickly making it onto the list as well, after all his sister did enough talking for both of them.

His parents sent him to a pediatric speech therapist on the school's recommendation and to some pediatric doctors as well. The result was always the same, that he needed to be encouraged to talk, to socialize and to do group activities. For a while this helped, children are very sociable when they want to be and having his sister by his side helped too. Dipper started to talk more at home, with Mabel and his parents.

Things had changed at school. Children, despite being sociable, were also very susceptible to making cruel comments when they met people who were different from them. Not even his super sociable sister seemed to be doing better than him, which made him sad, but still comforted him. At least he wasn't alone, he still had his sister to talk to.

The older he got, the more he realized he was different from the people around him, preferring to keep to himself, studying and reading at home instead of running around, talking only to teachers or his family, keeping his head down and avoiding older children. Speaking only when asked and not drawing attention to himself. His parents seemed too busy to notice that one of their children was falling into an old habit.

When his parents decided to inform him at the beginning of the summer that he and his sister would be spending not only their vacation but also their birthday in some hidden place in the country with some relative they had never even heard of before, Dipper seriously considered running away from home. It wasn't in his plans to spend three months with a complete stranger who might be interested in talking to him, until then few words and Mabel's help had made him go unnoticed at home and at school, but in a completely new environment? He was in serious trouble.

When he arrived in Gravity Falls and met his grunkle Stan the urge to run away was still strong, the man seemed very interested in giving Dipper a hard time or at least making him work without expecting anything in return, but by the end of the week he had the journal, had fought gnomes and earned a resentment from Stan, who actually acted as if Dipper's moments of silence didn't even bother him and was content with his few words and with Mabel filling the gaps between them.

He'd started talking more over the summer, his muteness showing up more when he was stressed, scared, or overwhelmed by the day's events, and every time Grunkle Stan acted like it was just something natural for him to do, filling the silences with answers he thought the boy would say or simply requesting responses in the form of nods. It felt right to Dipper, it felt like acceptance.

When the author of the diaries himself emerged from that portal in the basement it seemed to be the craziest and most overstimulating day of his short life. He could barely form words, his mind racing all over the place, he asked more questions of that adult than he could remember ever asking any adult, talking to his great-uncle Ford was different, it was like talking to Mabel only better, although he didn't understand Dipper's silences as well as the others when Dipper couldn't speak anymore he was still amazing to be around.

After Weirdmageddon Dipper thought he was fine, he and his sister got on the bus feeling like they weren't really going home but to their parents' house, leaving the people who understood and accepted him completely behind and heading towards the place where he didn't seem to be completely accepted. The first week went well, he and Mabel unpacking and getting ready for the new school year, but as soon as classes started he noticed he was back to square one, as if he was wearing old clothes that no longer fit him. The people around him didn't seem to see his growth or be happy for him.

He didn't want to, but being silent in the most diverse situations seemed to be becoming normal again. Luckily he wasn't alone, Mabel Grunkle Stan and Great-Uncle Ford were there, even if only on video calls, with them he could be silent and be heard, his sister was still by his side filling his silences, he would be fine. It was a matter of training, of finding his tribe and staying in touch with the people who cared.

He would be fine, he had his family by his side, even if he remained silent again he knew he would be accepted by them.

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I hope this is interesting to you, I found it quite fun to imagine a scenario for Dipper, although I wouldn't want to add too much trauma to his past since the summer was traumatic enough for a 12 year old.

[moooncats]

✿ Pick A Card : Why do your friends love you? ✿

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✿ 1: Black Mushroom: Grace | Felxibility. ✿

Woooow, okay okay so first off, you are very a go with the flow type of person. Imagine a koi fish just sailing through a mellow stream, unbothered and serene. Your friends admire that a lot from you because they know you are very easy going and even if plans change last minute you really are still full send. Lmao! I'm hearing that they think you're very zen. Pile 1 you may meditate or journal and your friends can really see a difference compared to other people they hang out with. You are very cool to them. They rarely ever see you being mad or making a scene, you are very gentle with your words and actions and your friends appreciate that a lot. I'm hearing you are always the first one they think to message when it comes to plans cause they already know what you're going to say lol. Also do you do yoga? Sorry kinda random, but you may be more athletic and your friends also love that cause they have more things to do with you yuhhh. (:

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✿ 2: Red Kitty Shroom: Support | Engagement. ✿

Oh wowzaaa, okay okay so like, you are very friendly pile two lmfao. This pile may have a signifigant other or is married, if not that's okay just a little message I'm hearing. Even if you don't believe it, you have a lot of friends and aquantences. Side note: I'm hearing secret admirers as well bwahaha. You are the life of the party. Like even if you feel like you're a wallflower you fit right in when it comes to conversating with others, stopping to smell the roses, or even saying hi to dog's being walked by a random stranger. Your friends adore that! They feel like you keep your heart open even when it comes to talking with random strangers. You always make the time to make the day a little bit more interesting than average. Boredom is not a problem you have because you know a vast ammount of people who will give you their time of day. You may be popular online or in real life. Im also getting Magician vibes from this pile and if you didn't notice it's associated with the Air sign Gemini (the twins and this is pile 2 brehhh xD) And if your not popular or don't feel it, truuuust me people know your name (big flex yuhh). Your friends appreciate you a lot! They also enjoy meeting your other friends as well. So don't shy away from making your socialite group bigger! (:

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✿ 3: Fisherman Kitty: Wholeness | Earnestness. ✿

Omg hiiii introverts! Wether it was on purpose, or not- Unlike pile 2, your friends appreciate that you are the type to not just let anyone into their aura. You feel at whole, just by yourself and you prefer not to give away from a half filled cup. It's giving me strong hermit vibes. You may do shadow work often or journal, take time to relax, make yourself happy- your friends noticed and they appreciate having such a wonderful person who actually loves themselves and puts themselves first. They have seen so many people lose themselves on the account of other people and it can be a real vibe downer. It is also extremely draining. You are the exact opposite of that. Seriously I'm hearing "that shit is contagious!" Lmaooo you have some goofy ass friends pile 3. You are very sencere when you talk with them and they appreciate that. You may be the type to say something along the lines of "I have some food in my bag for you, but not the type you can eat, its food for thought." Bruuuh on some Erykah Badu shit. Your words are prolofic af. Your friends appreciate your wisdom and stories that you tell them. I'm hearing "Continue being the amazing earth angel that you are". (:

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Thanks for taking the time to read my first ever PAC I appreciate all of you guys. Let me know if I should make more yuhhh. This is pretty fun, I love spreading positivity. (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

*I do not own any of the photos or gif's nyaa!*

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[guxciestone]

— self-love. ❞

(pick a pile reading)

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self-love and self-acceptance is very important. i hope you can take this reading very seriously and perhaps even find this accurate and learn some things about yourself. if you need any encouragement on why you deserved to be loved, check this post out! hopefully that helps. i hope you’re having a good day ♡

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how do you see yourself?

- There’s this idea of seeing yourself as someone who cannot love others. You might be what others call a “commitaphobe”. You might struggle with intimacy or getting close to others because you believe it is too much work, or perhaps you are afraid of what comes with it and what the other person will think of you. You might think that you aren’t worth getting to know, and if anyone did then they’d be turned off . This goes from your friends to your family to even your romantic relationships. You might be the type to think that love isn’t for you, which is not true. You view yourself as someone who is only worthy of it for the short-term and nothing more. For some of you, you might be a player or you like to get around. There’s also this vibe of not respecting yourself and your own boundaries.

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- You might be a huge people-pleaser. You serve to please others before yourself. You might be used to being around brash, abusive, controlling and arrogant individuals, so you are used to submitting to others. You could struggle with standing up for yourself at times too. I’m seeing a significant figure like a parent that could be an example of this in your life. There’s also attachment issues for a few of you, perhaps to this particular parent. Or even a particular partner. For some of you, you might be in a relationship where your boyfriend/girlfriend isn’t treating you with the utmost respect and could be very condescending and careless.

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how can you show yourself that you are worthy?

- You need to learn to listen to yourself. If your soul or body is telling you what you want, you give yourself what you want before you give anything to anybody else. Most importantly, you need to trust yourself and others. If you know someone is a good person and truly wants to care for you and get to know you, don’t push them away and be flighty. Listen to them and get to know them back. I’m also hearing take it slow if that is what makes you comfortable. I feel that most of you also struggle with overthinking things to the point where you self-sabotage yourself from good connections. Taking deep breaths, meditating, or even journaling can get your head in a good place before you make any serious decision.

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how can you be more authentic?

- For a certain group, you might be obsessed with materialism. You love nice things and you love feeling as though you have nice things. Who doesn’t? But you might be someone who likes to play an image of someone who has it all. I believe this is telling you to stop. You don’t need to have the nicest car, house, or clothes to be loved and admired by people. You are more than all of that. Show who you really are behind all of that. I’m sure you’re an amazing person. For others, you might struggle with truly committing to people because perhaps you have this idealized version of how intimacy and love should be. Love isn’t perfect, and you need to realize that. There’s going to be ups and downs. Stop running away at the slightest inconvenience, and you’ll be surprised how amazing love really is. Learn to be more comfortable expressing your emotions too. People around you probably think you’re nonchalant because you barely like showing how you feel. A few of you could also struggle with gambling too.

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what is something you need to let go of?

- You need to let go of your ego. That ego that stops you from experiencing true love and intimacy. You have this character of not needing love, not needing friends, not needing anyone—when in reality, we all need love. We are humans. We are social creatures. We thrive off of togetherness. You think that showing that you are capable of being on your own entirely will prove yourself to others, but it only pushes others away more and honestly it scares them. Truth is, this ego is only trying to hide fear. That fear of showing who you really are and possible being judged for it. There’s nothing to hide and prove. Just let go of that pride and let others in. Love is a gamble. When you open yourself up, you either get rejected or they’ll open themselves up to you, but I promise you it’s always worth it.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You cannot avoid disasters. You cannot reverse troubles, problems, and hick-ups in your relationships. Again, love isn’t perfect. We aren’t perfect. Additionally, you definitely cannot have the good without the bad and vice versa. It’s okay if your friend or siblings talk to you about how you need to open up to them more. They just want to communicate with you so that your relationship with them can thrive. It doesn’t mean they hate your guts and don’t like you. Please stop climbing into your little hole when someone tries to communicate with you about an issue. I promise you the bad parts are always worth it for the good parts.

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a message from your spirit guides/higher self

- It’s time for you to step into a new chapter in your life where you are aware of the challenges, know what is out there for you in regards to connections, and be your authentic self. I feel you’ve always known all of this, you just struggled with taking that first leap into the unexpected. Again, life and love is a gamble. You’ll never know what you get, but the bad is always worth it for the good.

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how do you see yourself?

- You could see yourself as someone who is vulnerable. You might believe that you are a pushover and it’s easy for others to take advantage of you, which leads you to feeling pretty worthless and insecure. At the same time, you can be guarded. You are someone who is stubborn and always seem to have a chip on your shoulder towards people. You could struggle with letting go of the past or forgiving people. There’s this energy of feeling as though the world is against you or is out to get you. You are defensive about who you let see your natural self out of a fear of being taken advantage of or judged. There might be times where you are aware of how vulnerable you are and you try to stand up for yourself but it only comes out as extreme aggression. It feels like you are just trying to survive in the world where everyone is against you.

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- For a group of you, you may have dealt with relationships in which you were always cheated, taken advantage of, betrayed, or embarrassed by someone. There’s a possibility of a toxic friendship or an abusive/tyrannical romantic partner. You are so used to this feeling of worthiness and having to stay in the shadow of the people you love, you aren’t comfortable with lifting yourself up and giving you what you want or need. You also seem to refuse to move on from these connections, and you have this belief that everyone you deal with will be this way with you. You’re stuck in the past which allows you to keep repeating these destructive patterns of depriving yourself of your needs.

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how can you show yourself you are worthy?

- Firstly, there needs to be a realization—you need to move on. You need to move on by forgiving the people who hurt you. Not for them, but for you to carry on with your life. It’s going to be difficult. It’s going to take some uncomfortable moments and a reconciliation with your past, but it’ll be worth it. You need to accept that this is your past. It’s not going to determine your future and the people you meet at all. I also feel you need to cry. There’s so much built-up emotion from the pain you’ve consumed. All of this sadness and betrayal turned into anger towards anyone and everyone you know, and you need to release it. Signing into therapy, journaling, or self-soothing meditations could help.

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how can you be more authentic?

- You are familiar with thinking of the past, but it is more important to think of the present and future. Think of who you are now after moving on, and think about who you want to become in the future. All the way up to now, you’ve been lacking in personal development and progress due to focusing on what already happened. It’s time to set goals for yourself in regards to your self-love, career, and true connections to see what life holds for you. It’s time to stop pitying and find what truly makes you happy and satisfied.

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what is something you need to let go?

- You need to let go of your personal ideologies you’ve made about people over time. Not everyone is a bad person, and not everyone is someone that is to not be trusted. It is time to let new people have a chance to see into your world. I’m also hearing that if there is someone or some people in your life right now who are trying to becoming your friends, you should let them. They’ll introduce you to a spontaneous world you’ve never been in before. You might go to parties, bars, and be more social often.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You need to acknowledge that your life turns in the favor of your thoughts. If you believe in the positive and abundant, then that is what it’ll be. You are not a burden or a curse to this world. You deserve happiness, peace, and love just like anyone else. You’ll soon see that your outer world will change according to your self-image. Good people are going to start coming into your life.

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messages from your spirit guides/higher self

- There’s one distinct person who you need to cut off from your life completely. It could be someone you refuse to let go of, and you might know you need to do so. There’s this promise that if you do, your life will improve much more. This could be a masculine figure—a father figure, friend, or someone you are romantically involved with. They seem like someone who serves no purpose in your life and are just dead weight. They could also place unnecessary burdens on you.

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how do you see yourself?

- You could see yourself as someone who needs to be saved or need to be swept off of their own feet. You have this victim mentality occurring. You could feel that you aren’t as fortunate as most people. Perhaps you are in the working class or a part of a minority. There’s this feeling of having the burden of struggling and waiting for someone to come help you. You also kind of feel left out in the cold. This perception of yourself could make you someone who is incredibly hardworking but yet has this pitiful mentality of “I’ve been through the worst and I’m used to the worst.”

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- You don’t prioritize your own needs because you are too in your head about things. When you are overthinking, you subtly discourage yourself from taking care of yourself because you feel it’s not worth it due to your status or whatever societal construct you feel is holding you back. For some of you, there could be some underlying insecurities regarding your race, gender, or social class. You are also someone who take things very seriously. You are someone who is always on the defense and ready to attack anyone who you feel threatened by.

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how can you show yourself that you are worthy?

- There’s this utter bitterness I feel coming from you—bitterness towards the people who you feel have an advantage over you. I would love to tell you right now that you cannot fight hate with hate, it only makes the situation worse. I’m hearing “balance” and “fairness”. You need to respect others, at least the people who haven’t shown any source of animosity towards you. You also get a bit unmotivated when you are looking at others prosper. You should learn to encourage others in order to encourage yourself. Lifting up others makes you feel ten times better about yourself. Looking at others, especially the people you love, prosper will encourage you to do better. There’s also no need to be defensive at times. I’m getting that being less defensive and accepting will bring in new people in your life who will give you opportunities to go after your goals.

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how can you be more authentic?

- You have this strong desire to “go against the grain” all the time. I’m here to tell you that you don’t have to do that anymore. It is okay if you happen to want to do something that others happen to criticize others for, that’s you. Striving to oppose everyone just to stand out or prove a point gets stressful after a while. Do what you want without your socially constructed ego getting in the way of it.

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what is something you need to let go of?

- There might be particular goal you have in mind that you truly don’t want to follow through with. Your ego is what is making you go after this goal. You need to let go of that goal because that isn’t what you really desire. If this is a particular career that was forced upon you by your parents or society, most definitely drop it. Follow your true passions. I’m also feeling that you need to quit your current job for some reason.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You need to acknowledge that the world isn’t fair at times. Sometimes you won’t get what you exactly want because society has made it to where not everything is made for us. However, create with what you have. Make the best out of what you have, and you are guaranteed success and happiness.

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messages from spirit guides/higher self

- It is important to stop putting yourself down. You’re much more than what people say you are. I’m hearing that you know yourself better than anyone, and you know you are more. Take the time to cry. But don’t cry for long, because I feel you might have a tendency to fall deeper into the pit when you sulk too much in your emotions.

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how do you see yourself?

- There’s a sense of confusion in how you view yourself. Perhaps that most of you struggle with your identity and knowing who you are as a person. There could be the possibility that a lot of you use other’s perceptions of you to define who you are, which isn’t healthy. You could be the type of person who receives judgment from others and takes it to heart. You don’t take criticism easily, you’re very sensitive too (there is nothing wrong with that, by the way. please don’t bash yourself for having feelings) You don’t have a clear sense of self-identity, hence you don’t have a clear sense of self-worth. You could be someone who is also a bit selfless too, but in a detrimental way. You could be used to others having the attention and appreciation. You might be the type to avoid being in the spotlight due to the fear of being judged or being perceived as selfish. You are an incredibly humble person though, but it’s okay to shine once in a while. You could also see yourself as someone who is a bit chaotic and all-over-the-place. Your might be confused about a lot of things about yourself—like what you want, what are your goals, etc.

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why don’t you prioritize your own needs?

- You do not prioritize your own needs because there is a fear of feeling selfish. You believe that putting yourself over others means you are careless and reckless, which is not true. It is okay to look after yourself. You’re here to survive and live the best life possible for yourself, of course you’re in the center of your own world. You could be easy to control and manipulated into doing the opposite of what you should. Perhaps you have friends who persuade you to help them with their problems instead of the other way around for example. I’m also getting the vibe of someone in this pile being in a relationship or connection with someone where they are being handled like they cannot make decisions for themselves. It seems to me you need to take back control of your life in some way, in some area of your life. For some of you, it could be a career; for the other group of you, your identity and ability to make your own choices.

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how can you show yourself that you are worthy?

- You can show yourself that you are worthy by appreciating yourself more, and letting others appreciate you more. It is okay for the attention or spotlight to be on you. If there is something you feel there is worth congratulating for, then best believe it is. Let everyone see you for a minute, let yourself see you for a minute and clap for yourself. This will also help with self-confidence. I’m also feeling you should try to invest in new hobbies. Find what makes you happy. I feel you are so used to dealing with others, you don’t spend time to learn more about yourself. This is the time. Go out to the park, buy a new pet, or start creating art. Have fun and get to know yourself more through your interests.

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how can you be more authentic?

- You can be more authentic by taking more risks and truly going after what you want unapologetically. You might have certain goals you’ve always wanted to accomplish but self-sabotage or insecure thinking may gotten in your way. Most of the things you want to do have been halted due to your unsure mindset. In order to truly know what it is you want to do, you need to stop thinking, go for it, and take that risk instead. I’m also getting that some of you want to travel or start a business venture. I suggest you go for it and don’t think twice.

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what is something you need to let go of?

- You need to let go of this constant need of serving others. I understand you’re humble and giving, which is great. However, sometimes it can be a bit exhausting considering the fact that you are going to need to serve yourself at the same time too. Once again, it is okay to focus on and provide for yourself once in a while. There’s no need to feel shame for that whatsoever. You are not meant to serve others like a maid or slave, you’re a human being who deserves comfort and security just as much as anyone else. Believe it.

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what is something you need to acknowledge?

- You need to acknowledge that you are not inherently “better” than others just because you are selfless and giving towards others. You might have a tendency of looking at people who have a good sense of self as individuals who don’t care about others when in reality you are too invested in others to know that you should be caring for yourself as well. You need to acknowledge that there is nothing wrong with focusing on yourself just as much as there is nothing wrong with caring for others. There can be a balance. It seems to me that you feel this way about these types of people because you are rather envious of the fact that they can shamelessly check up in themselves while you can’t, and also the feeling that being selfless is the “right” thing to be. Both sides can good or bad in their way.

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messages from your spirit guides/higher selves

- There seems to be financial or mental hardships in your life right now. Your guides or higher self is calling for you to pay attention to this. This matters the most right now. It’s time for you to take the attention away from others and focus on getting what is tearing down built back up again. Some of you could have lost a job or could be going through a depressive season right now. It is okay to seek a financial advisor or a therapist too. It is okay to talk to others about your issues. Make sure it is people you can trust and confide in, people who won’t take advantage of your insecurities.

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[writefightandflightclub]

Blorbo thought of the day #3

Dear Diary, I met an asshole. (Nathan Bateman x reader)

A/n: quick little Nathan x reader dialogue / blurb. Bickering / sass, bit of silliness, slight fluff. (Edited a bit since first posting!)

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“It’s rude to do that,” you scold, as Nathan leans over your shoulder, peeking at your scrawled journal entry. You wrap your arm, protecting the page from his prying eyes - a little too late though, you fear.

“It’s rude to violate your NDA, sweetheart.” You scowl at him. “Okay. Not rude. Illegal… But also rude.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Yeah. If you’rewriting about my robots, I’m gonna have to confiscate that.”

“I’m not writing about your robots,” you lie, but Nathan simply eyes you over the rim of his glasses, arcing a thick eyebrow. You tut in concession. “Fine. You got me.”

He extends his hand. “Give it here then.”

“Woah. No way. I’m not giving you my diary.”

His face twists in distaste. “You keep a diary? What are you, 12?”

You study him and hum pensively at the thought of Nathan employing similar habits. “Hmm, yeah. You know what? I can totally see why self-reflection really wouldn’t appeal to you.”

He perches one pert ass cheek on the short edge of your desk. “Dear diary,” he ponders, considering what form his own entry might take. “Today I was fucking amazing.” He pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose and smirks at you. “You’re right. Would get a little repetitive.”

You fail to return his smile, instead, offering an alternative. “Dear diary. Today I ate 3 packets of hot Cheetos in my sweats. Almost rubbed one out right there on the couch - before remembering the effects of chilli dust. Lucky escape.”

You are satisfied when the smirk drops from his face for a moment. He clears his throat as your assessment hits a little on the nose. “Whatever. I’d still rather be me on my worst day.” You scoff. “Anyway. Seriously. I need to take that.”

“You’re kidding.”

“Relax. I’ll redact anything in violation and hand it right back to you.”

“Um, emphatically no.”

“Oh please. Worried about me uncovering your deep, dark secrets? Do you think I’m clamouring for your pedestrian internal monologue? You don’t need to keep any secrets from me, honey. I’m literally not interested.”

You clutch the notebook to your chest all the same, and you mumble something under your breath. Nathan urges you to speak up and you repeat it, a little louder. “But… I’ve.. um. I’ve written quite a lot about you.”

He flashes you a lopsided smile, all smug. “Of course you have, honey.” If it’s possible, his tone grows even more grandiose. “I suppose it’ll be interesting to read how you mere mortals perceive me.”

At that, you’re just about done.

You arc an eyebrow, and you hand the notebook over to him. “Knock yourself out, Nathan.”

***

“‘Dear Diary, I met an asshole.’” Nathan quotes, storming into the living area with your opened notebook balanced across one broad palm. “Seriously?”

You scoff from your vantage point on the couch as he eyes you indignantly, immediately reaching for the remote to turn down the volume. This is going to be good. “Fun read?”

“Trite, rambling, redundant.”

You stifle a smile. “I dunno, Nate. You seem invested.”

“Surprisingly, some of your comments were actually quite insightful,” he admits, with a cock of his head.

You nod in emphatic agreement. “‘Dear diary, I met an asshole.’”

He scowls at you. “Not that one.”

You stretch your legs out, kicking your feet up onto the coffee table. “I dunno. Seems on the money to me. I mean. What kind of asshole reads someone’s diary?”

He sighs, and you scooch over a little so he can plonk himself down next to you, dropping the notebook in your lap. You leaf through it, finding that text on particular pages had been redacted with thick black marker. He’s really gone through every single bit of it.

“Happy now?” you ask him, risking a glance and finding him sat sulkily, arms folded over his shapely chest.

“No.”

“Okay.” You don’t ask him to elaborate, and instead reach to turn up the volume - until he interjects, that is.

“I expected…”

“Expected what, Nathan? Expected me to be impressed by you or something?”

He scratches his buzzed head. “Well duh.”

You turn you body in towards him on the couch, leaning one elbow against the back edge and propping your head so you can get a good look at him.

“What do you care anyway? Last I heard you were uninterested in my ‘pedestrian internal monologue’.”

He tuts. Wafting his palm through the air and his eyes fluttering closed in frustration. “Never mind.”

“Okay.”

You’re happy to oblige him. In fact, you are about to turn back to the tv once more until-

“-You really think I’m an asshole?” His voice is soft. Vulnerable. At least - more so than you’ve ever heard it. It gives you pause. Subdues the edge of your bite.

“Well… When I first met you? Hell yeah.”

His dark, calculating eyes study you. “And how about now?”

Your cheeks heat subtly under his gaze, burning with self-consciousness. “Well,” you dismiss. “That’s redacted.”

“Come on.” He elbows you gently in the ribs. “I know all your secrets now.”

“Not all,” you counter, attempting to come off mysterious.

“No?”

“Nuh uh.” You smile at him, beckoning him closer with a waft of your hand, until he leans in placing your mouth a hair’s breadth from the shell of his ear. “Now, Nathan? You’ve been downgraded to annoying.”

His eyes roll into oblivion as you laugh and tease him.

“Come on, Nathan. It’s not as though you like me any better, right?”

For once, he seemingly doesn’t have anything else to say. His gaze simply flits over your face, his eyes -dare you say it- warm. That is, until he grabs up a notebook from the table, turns to the back page and starts scribbling. Then, the smug, arrogant countenance makes its return.

“What are you doing?”

“Writing exactly what I think of you.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Mmm hmm.”

He scribbles hastily, keeping the page covered from your view, and smirking to himself all the while, his mouth dragging up beneath the raven brush of his beard.

Then, Nathan unceremoniously places the closed book on the table right in front of you, before wafting (smugly) out of the room.

You eye the book with intense interest. As though suddenly, nothing else exists. You eye it enough that you can feel your gaze almost burning a hole in the back cover.

Exactly what Nathan thinks of you? And he left it right there? In front of you?

Of course, after a moment’s deliberation, you can’t help yourself. You reach for it, arm outstretched.

“Ah ah, princess.” You jump out of your skin, as Nathan’s tinny voice bleeds through the intercom. “What kind of asshole reads someone’s diary?”

You. You think you’re that exact kind of asshole, and what’s more, he knows it.

You reach for the book and flip to last page, and you begin to read.

“Dear diary…”

[dragonrider9905]

If you could get to know and/or write with another writer (or more) who would it be?

Hi Anon!!!!!

Thank you SO much for the ask!!!!! This is such a fun one, and I appreciate you thought to send it my way!!!!!

Hoooooo boi, there are SO many cool people on here and AO3, I hope I get them all because SO many people deserve an honorable mention at least. There are also many artists who'd I'd be honored to have work collaborated with.

*Quick disclaimer, I may not tag everyone because I work long hours so if I've forgotten you, it isn't intentional, my brain is just stupid. So I shall begin!!!!

First and foremost, my dear writing friend @eclec-tech. She is literally the coolest. Her stories?!?!?!? Some of the best AU and OCs I've ever read. I will love and ship Tech/Phee, but Miran Threst has first place in my heart for Tech (even over my own OC!) She's read a lot of my work, encouraged me so much in the beginning of my time writing and even now when I get very disheartened with my progress. She's the reason I'm here on Tumblr! Her stories are just so cool. And she's a cool person.

Of course there is my bestie @photogirl894 🥰she shares my innate love for Hunter and the Bad Batch. Her ideas are SO fun and she's so fun to chat with. I've read a lot of her work before we met and I fangirled from a distance til she invited me to chat. I'm still so in awe of just talking to her, it'd be a dream to write something with her.

@apocalyp-tech-a is a moot I'd love to get to know more. Her work is freakn amazing!!!!! I know we share a love of many things, especially poetry. Her things never disappoint. Her Tech anthologies blow me away. She's so sweet and humble too.

@lizartgurl (or @jedipoodoo) I hold in awe for her medieval Batchers. I'd love to get to know her a bit more and I'D BE SO DOWN to write something with her sometime. Goodness, Hunter is beautiful on his own but BAM medieval Hunter? Just made him so much more so. She's been an inspiration to me and my own writing.

@arctrooper69 is SOOOO fun to work with!!!! She wrote "As Iron Sharpens Iron" and asked me to beta read. IT'S SO FREAKN FUN to work with her as we add fine details to her already freakn amazing story! (seriously folks, go check it out)

@carolinetano7567 has some amazing stuff I've loved seeing on here and I know we share a love of the Batch and Wingfeather! It'd be fun to collaborate someday.

@trapezequeen is such a fun presence on here too. We've discussed story ideas and it's always so fun!!!!!

Quick break to shoutout people I don't know if they're on here or not -- my great friend who I write "Hunter's Stress Journal" with, Ghost Cookie, SlimTech, Yazstar, kaydear, Cuthian, and a few other Ao3 authors I majorly fangirl over their works.

@ghostofskywalker has so many fun ideas and so many cool works and is always so sweet when I submit requests. I'm always awestruck by the work. Not to mention all the cool exchanges Ghost puts together? Those are always so much fun and so cool to participate in.

Of course there's dear @masterjedilenaaa, one of the first writers I discovered in fanfiction. I am always awestruck by the amount of detail and fine work done in all of the requests I've submitted. I think I'd faint if she'd ask me to collab.

@ladysongmaster is SUCH a cool person!!!!!! and all of the amazing stories she writes?!?!?!?! pleeeeeeease colllabing with her would be mindblowing!!!!!!

I'd love to get to know @moonstrider9904 more. I've seen a lot of her posts and she's so fun to interact with!!!!!

@klmwrites has so many different, COOOOL, like freakn cool, ideas. All of the ones I've read have left me at the edge of my seat, needing, wanting more. To work with someone so amazing and creative?!?!?! I think I'd just be too awestruck.

I have to have at least an honorable mention for @techs-stitches and @ovaa-bi-bia. They've been SO supportive of me in the past. I don't know if they write, but I love seeing their posts and getting to know them.

@frostycatblr-fandom-files is a favorite pop up of mine too. I love seeing the artwork and the stories!!!!!!! Collabing would be fun!!!!

@imabeautifulbutterfly is such an amazing, sweet, person!!!!! And the creativity?!?!?!?! the beauty with which she writes?!?!?! I would LOVE to collaborate with her. She's been a beautiful soul and a great friend <3 She might be last on the list but CERTAINLY not the least!!!! <3

Gee, I know there are more, but like my disclaimer earlier stated, my brain isn't at full steam.

So in short...a lot of people XD Thanks for taking the time to read my long winded response :) and for asking!!!! 🥰❤️

[yodomi-nikki]

It's the end of October and I've been addicted to warhammer for 2 months now… I get bored easily, even with characters I thought I loved, I get bored after 3 days of sucking up all the cues and lore, it's really amazing that I can buy books and models and still not lose interest. What a vast world!

Going back to my diary, my first exposure to lore was on August 21. After reading the rough world setting of 40k on a subculture wiki in my native language, I was hooked, I wrote at the time, "I can either join the Genestealer cult and look forward to the end times, or I can leave it all to the Nurgle gods." I wrote down at the time. From then on, my journal entries abruptly began and ended with headcanons about the servants of the Naguru God, the insertion of a synopsis of lewd writing, the rise of tamurkhan and kazyk, and my surprise and delight when I learned that the GUO and the human witches had a child. Steady corruption.

I don't know how to compete with the hordes of porn/reader delusions and warhammer romance that fly in from outer space above all else, with one book after another to read, one topic after another to worry about, and I want to move on with my games and painting. I feel like the only thing left in the world is warhammer. I am getting more and more into it, and I am taking the steps to write about the Naguru gods and their servants on social networking sites in my native language and being ignored.

No, seriously, how are warhammer fans coping with such a situation where there are too many things to get their hands on?

And I also see it spelled kazyk, kayzk, but he is handsome, dedicated, and holds the noble office of knight. I'm thinking now that the Gopher can impregnate a human witch. It seems to say in the AoS novel that Lotbringers can also reproduce. I have been reading it but have not gotten to it yet. I think that if a person who is predestined to be a daemon can reproduce, there is no reason why a man who has the title of knight, recognized by God, should not be able to reproduce. Looking at his btw3 wonderful model, with its meaningful seam in the crotch area, I don't think it's impossible.

[butterfly-loa]

𝐏𝐈𝐂𝐊 𝐀 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃: 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞

hello & welcome to this pick a pile ! in this pick a pile reading you’re going to receive messages you need to hear from the universe/source. i hope you enjoy & find this helpful ! do make sure to leave a comment on which pile you picked & whether it resonated with you or not.

if you wish to tip me for my services or would like a paid oracle / tarot reading, add me on discord: butterfly#1111

for legal reasons: this pick a pile is for entertainment purposes only, therefore take everything i say with a grain of salt as the future is not certain & can change at anytime depending on your choices.

pictures: all from pinterest, credit to the rightful owners/artists.

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𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟏:

kuan yin oracle cards: turquoise lotus mother, reveal the peacock beauty, blossoms of the sky dancer.

turquoise lotus mother: with this card present as your first card, it seems as though you’ve gone through a very challenging time in your life. this challenge could’ve involved some sort of a spiritual awakening, breaking old patterns, struggling to love yourself, coming to terms with the fact that you deserve love, and more. in fact it could be as simple as having your heart broken by a loved one or getting betrayed by a trusted one. either way, through this card. the universe wishes for you to know that you are deserving of love, care, & compassion. you deserve the same effort of love & care that you give out to others, but before you start accepting the love that is around you. you must start loving yourself, remember that love comes from a place of belonging & you must start feeling as though you belong in this world. always remember that you belong to be here. doesn’t matter what mistake or ‘sin’ you’ve done, you deserve to be here ! so, start focusing on yourself. go to the gym, start creating healthy habits, eat healthy foods, start journaling every now & then, and start being the real you ! don’t hide your true self behind this mask, this real you also deserves to see & experience the world.

reveal the peacock beauty: with this card present, i can see that you have a lot of insecurities about yourself. you might be insecure about how you look, how you dress, how you act, how you hold certain things, & more. it’s almost as though you’ve been criticized so much throughout your life that you’ve forgotten who you truly are. seriously, ask yourself this & reconsider your values: what’s one hobby you truly enjoy that the society didn’t force you to do? what’s one favorite food that you actually enjoy without having to fake it? who’s that one favorite artist that you would love to meet if society wasn’t so against it? with that, remember that behind this fake smile of yours, there is a beautiful soul that deserves to be loved & expressed. this beautiful soul wants to be heard & have fun. they want to go to the park, go to a flower garden, go to the library, go to that one concert, go eat at this amazing restaurant without any constraints. this beautiful soul wants to be expressed & that beautiful soul is you ! therefore stop trying to fit into this criteria the society wants you to fit into, instead be bold & creative. think & grow outside this box, and be you ! be the you that is happy, be the the you that won’t have any regrets later in life. who cares what the society says, just listen through one ear & take it out the other !

blossoms of the sky dance: with this final card, you are just being reminded that it’s finally time to stop striving to be this perfect person & instead just allow this manifestation to come true. simply let go, and allow your creativity to come true. stop stressing so much as to whether your manifestation will come true or not, because it is. in fact it’s already happened, you just need to let go.

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𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟐:

kuan yin oracle: shining lotus, bamboo moon, to the celestial mountain.

shining lotus: with this card present as your first card, it seems as though you’ve been struggling for a while to find inner strength. it’s almost as though you’re feeling very stressed about work, school, education, family, or something that is very important. i also feel like part of the reason why you’re stressing so much is because time plays a huge factor into it, for example you might be stressing because you’ve yet to decide which university/college you want to go to or perhaps it’s time for you to move out & live on you own. therefore the universe/source suggests that you take a risk and do what you wants you to do, like you will never know if something is for you unless you give it a try. moreover life is a gamble in a sense like whether you actually gamble or not it’s time to realize that you’re always making choices & hoping that something goes right or in your favor, so what is one more risk going to harm? literally take a huge leap of faith & come of the closet, like those who are going to disagree with you will disagree with you and talk behind your back but those who truly believe in you will stick with you so in a sense it’s a win win situation. moreover, i’m also behind urged to mention that you need to stop bottling your emotions so much ! bottling emotions is very harmful to your emotional health, so try to talk to a beloved/closed one & who knows they’ll know how you can solve your problems or matter of fact you’ll feel much more at ease knowing that you aren’t alone & that someone else is there with through this experience.

bamboo moon: with this card as your second card, it seems as though divine timing is highly being highlighted. therefore like i said earlier take a leap of faith and do what your heart wants to do. stop confusing yourself and overcomplicating things for yourself because the more you think the more you’re going to spiral & get into this toxic/unhealthy mindset that is harmful. moreover, you might be thinking or feeling that this is just a reading so obviously it’s not actually going to happen or you might be like “oh this isn’t true, i know myself best” then you can stick to that mindset if you want but literally all your guides and your spirit team is urging for you to take this leap of faith because it’s past due & they might just be tired of you always repeating the same lessons & not taking your own advice. 

to the celestial mountain: with this card, it’s basically just the universe saying that if you feel alone scared or confused, always feel free to call on your spirit team because they’re always with you & are always guiding you in the right path. for example you can call on them or connect with them through meditation or simply by saying “i call upon my spirit team(higher self, spirit guides, etc) to guide me & help me through this journey because i’m ‘xxxxxx’. thank you!”. or you can even come up with your own invocation or another way to connect to them. but um, for now the universe & your spirit team wants you to know that you aren’t alone even if it seems lonely at times & that you are loved.

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𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟑:

kuan yin oracle: to the celestial mountain, gates of heaven, eight immortals.

to the celestial mountain: with this card present as your first card, it seems as though the universe along with your spirit team is saying that you’ve been feeling a bit lonely & maybe even spiraling a bit because you might be feeling lost/unsure as to what to do regarding a certain situation. therefore the universe along with your spirit team suggests that you ask someone else for help & maybe even your spirit team since all they want is the best for you. but, they’re generally saying that asking someone else for help or assistance isn’t a sign of weakness but rather a sign of confidence because you’re standing up & asking for guidance. so, there’s no need to feel ashamed for asking for assistance since it’s completely normal & understandable. moreover the universe wishes to remind you that you are a strong soul and that you’ve already lived multiple lives already (if you believe in reincarnation) and that this life/obstacle is just a lesson that you need get through. i believe i’m also hearing that some of you in this pile have been suffering with severe depression and or anxiety for quite some time and that you have also been debating getting professional help i assume, so in regards to that your spirit team definitely urges that you seek professional help as it will definitely help you & make you feel understood.

gates of heaven: with this card as your second card, it definitely seems as though you’ve been suffering with depression, anxiety, or some other type of mental health issues that might be getting in the way of your daily life. perhaps the people in this pile may even be spiritual & have a spiritual view in life, if you do it seems that you’re going through a transition(possible awakening in the horizon). but your spirit team and the universe wishes for you to know that life & suffering are both vital parts of life and that for a human to exist. it is very important for one to go through the 7 states of suffering, therefore wish to remind you that this suffering you’re going through at the moment too shall pass & soon happiness will follow bearing many gifts. at the same time you’re being advised to detach yourself from lower vibrational beings/things.

eight immortals: in general, your spirit team and universe want you to know that they are always there for you so if there is ever a time that you feel alone, feel free to call them & ask them to give you some comfort and they’d be more than willing to do so especially during this transition that you’re going through. but they also wish for you to know that they truly love you like their child because technically you are their child as they’re watching over you & aiding you. just know that you are loved and cared for & are on the right path even though it might not seem like it at times !

[wiltking]

Hello, this is probably a silly question but how did you get so good at writing? I've read you fics and they're amazing, even just a simple sentence you say sounds great. (I mean it sincerely) I want to improve my writing and my english along the line, what did you do? Or do you have any recommendations?

oh gosh i still feel like a baby writer with so much to learn. but i think the thing that helped me the most is learning how to read books from a writer's perspective. especially my favorite books. i mean really taking them apart piece by piece and figuring out why they come off as such good books to me. story structure, word choice, yes even something as simple as sentence. why do i think this book is so good? why is this character so memorable to me? in what way was this incredible line set up to have such a great impact? why do i continue to think about these books even years later?

these are the things I think about while I read. and its especially helpful during a reread when you already know the whole story of a book and can pay closer attention to things like setup and delivery.

this isn't reserved for 'objectively' well written or technically complex books, either. i've said many times that nora sakavic's all for the game series was the most formative to me when i was trying to seriously get into writing. and i always hear people expressing that the writing in those books isn't the greatest. respectfully i disagree, but even if people don't think they're well written there's a reason why those books are so beloved. the intense passion that radiates off the page even during some of the most insane ideas is just one of those things.

more recently i've been doing some research while i work on my horror writing by turning to some of my favorite fantasy / dark fiction writers. resuming my reread of the hexslinger series by gemma files is part of that, because those books were also extremely formative, and reading kissing carrion by the same author last year really made me think for the first time ok, maybe i can write flowery queer horror too. because those stories really resonated with me, and i think about the ending of the hexslinger series constantly. for years. it literally haunts me. but the reason why the ending is so impactful is all the build up that leads up to it. and the way the relationships are written. and the balance of love and horror and genuine connections and the deepest betrayals and... anyway i've kind of been going through her writing with a fine tooth comb to try and understand why she's inspired me for sooo many years.

elizabeth bear's edda of burdens; another formative piece of writing for me, despite me also having some issues with it. i'd love to reread it soon too but don't exactly have the time when i'm in full writing mode, so the other day i just took apart the intro to by the mountain bound in my reading journal. by copying down the first three paragraphs, underlining my favorite lines, and writing some notes about them. my notes aren't anything profound, i was just appreciating the wolfish way mingan is described in the littlest ways that are also so integral to him, and the pretty words chosen to describe the season. the way he's set up as different and 'other' from the very first page even with something as innocent as choosing to daydream. it's all stuff i try to appreciate and learn from.

i don't use my writing journal often (because its easier to type my thoughts here, tbh) but i generally use it to collect quotes i like (and always try to leave some notes about why i like each quote). the other day i also jotted down the opening sentences to some folk tales because its relevant to what i'm working on, and i wanted to study what important information they chose to lead with to set the tone of a story.

tldr; examine your favorite books from a writing perspective. try to understand the choices that were made on both a grand scale (story structure) and little details (word choice, descriptions, paragraph flow). and always try to write your passions even if its weird!! especially if it's weird. you've got this <3

[ursachaotic]

Ok this might be a little weird and I want to tell this to you anonymously because I don't want to make you feel pressured into answering ^^' (let it be known I am a mutual of yours & I know we don't talk but I think you're really cool <:) Your genuine love for Gravity Falls and you excitement about The Book of Bill is kind of. Helping me rekindle old love for the franchise. I stopped interacting with it more or less involuntarily (bad experience with bad people) and felt bad that I can't get into it but honestly your interest did help me rediscover it, or at least start to do so. Like I've picked up my old Journal 3 a couple times this week, I thought about re-watching the show, I bookmarked the cheapest "to be released" listings for TBOB in the online shops in my country, I have the thisisnotawebsitedotcom bookmarked too. I've been picking up my hand-made-from-a-towel Bill plush and just looking at him. Thinking about trying to find his hat and make him a new bow because I took them off when it was just too awful to perceive.

I hope this isn't weird. I genuinely don't mean to be weird or trigger your anxiety or anything, I mean it. Your love for this show and everything around it is helping me a bit to rediscover my own, which is great, because as someone with interest in folklore, the paranormal and cryptids, GF was an amazing thing to discover. I myself made a grown up version of Dipper, who's a full-on cryptid hunter and wrote a lot of stories about him, later turning that concept into my own thing because it was too painful to keep but I loved all of the creatures I made and the lore and stuff. So I just took my ideas and moved it into my own thing, which is currently my most developed universe with my most beloved ocs.

This is lengthy. Sorry. Again, I genuinely don't want to creep you out, just, I'm glad I found you and your art and your comic and that you're so excited about your interests. Please know that you are never bad or annoying for loving what you love, please continue being so passionate about things, because it's really cool. You're cool. I hope you know that ^^ and, well, if not, I'm telling you. You're cool and your work is amazing.

(If you would prefer me to pm you feel free to post about it here or your personal? blog, whichever you're cool with, I'll probably see it and can just pm you with like "haha yeah I'm the long rekindled-interest anon" or you can answer this or just read & delete, I really don't mind if you don't want to answer ^^. Just, wanted to say this. Again I hope this isn't weird ;w; I swear I'm just a little adhd guy who used to love GF a lot, and possibly might be okay enough to start interacting with it on his own. And your love for the franchise helped.)

Hi this made me tear up (iN A GOOD WAY I PROMISE AHSDOFISADH I CRY WHEN I'M HAPPY LOL), this is seriously so, so sweet. Thank you so much for sending me this!! 🥹 I'm really glad that all of my silly Gravity Falls stuff has helped you get back into the show, and I hope you enjoy it and enjoy the Book of Bill if you get it!

Also, this seriously means a lot to me, especially because I'm actually really self-conscious about my interests and passions haha. I'm terrified of being seen as annoying, and there's been a lot of times recently where I've shut down out of the fear of being annoying about my interests. But I'm starting to not give a shit about whether or not people find me annoying online?? I want to be super vocal about something I adore so damn much cause it makes me happy! I've also been burnt out on drawing for a WHILE, but reading this book has given me so much inspiration, and drawing feels really fun and exciting again for the first time in a while! I struggle with depression a lot too, but my love for Bill and excitement about what's to come for the series has helped me feel really happy and kept me going for the first time in a bit. So, while I'm still scared of being perceived as annoying, I'm really happy right now and I want to keep doing stuff that makes me happy, even if that's just drawing Bill antagonizing me / my sona lmao. Seriously, thank you so much for sending me this! It's incredibly sweet and I'm really grateful that you did ;w;

Also you can absolutely reach out over DMs!! I would love to talk, but I hope you're having a wonderful day!! 🥹❤️

[the-letterbox-archives]

file (0)0-54-000: writer questionnaire

thank you @gioiaalbanoart for the tag! this is a writing questionnaire!

q1) is writing a hobby or way of life?

way of life for sure.

q2) a journal full of writing notes or a clean, completed manuscript?

the messy journal is inside my brain, but the documents i use to write are incredibly organised to contrast that.

q3) who (or what) is your writing inspiration?

is it arrogant to say me? i am the one that pushes myself to write, to search for more info, to dump all the noise in my head onto a google doc, so y’know, i’d have to say me.

q4) which is worse: someone you “idolise” reading your first draft or listening to you sing?

depending on who the person is, they would’ve already heard/read both. but i think singing would be worse because, as much as i love music and musicals, i fucking suck at singing.

q5) has writing from someone else’s pov ever changed your own perspective?

it's not exactly writing in another pov that's got me thinking about things differently, more so thinking about the reasoning behind the character's actions/mentality, like the super deep, meta stuff that i can't properly articulate, that's changed me a lot. from the top of my head, laszlo and the tfadh protagonists have changed my perspectives, on ocassion.

q6) tumblr, ao3, livejournal, or ffn?

tumblr, i haven’t used any of the other three for posting my work.

q7) ao3 wordcount, and are you satisfied with it?

don’t write on ao3, and i don’t keep track of my wordcount as is. all in all, i’m not too fussed by wordcount anyway, as long as i write what needs to be written.

q8) what movie/book/fic gripped you irrevocably?

nimona made me realise i was genderfluid so that’s a pretty big one. deadloch also has a massive chokehold on my life, it’s such a good series (comedy murder mystery, small town tasmania, engaging cast, amazing dialogue and jokes, cannot hype it up enough. it’s on amazon prime, go watch it (or pirate it, seriously, more people need to know about it)). a couple fics have altered my brain chemistry too, but i can't remember the names (all slay the princess fluff though haha).

q9) what’s the highest compliment you could ever be given, and have you been given it?

i get flushed from literally every compliment, every compliment is amazing :) i don’t think i have a highest compliment in my head, i assume there is one out there, however.

q10) what defines your writing style?

no idea. the words just happen, i’ll let readers pick up the patterns and subtext (there are some words and phrases i use a lot, though).

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[our-transgender-experiences]

Hi Alex. Is it ok to vent a little bit a lot? It's completely fine if you don't post any response, I completely understand. This is a HUGE experience prompt to respond to.

I was birthed with the male sex (he/him) so you can call me that.

Over the past year and two months, I've been feeling just a little off. I keep a journal, and have since before that moment, so I have my experience written down carefully. In short form, I don't know who I am. In a longer form, I'm a weird, cringey high schooler who doesn't know who they are, who wears a galaxy backpack to school, who is agnostic (Christian, but can't prove it right or wrong), aromantic, and asexual. My experience isn't special by any means, in fact, I think I fit literally every queer stereotype known to mankind? Here's the best part: I live in Oklahoma, the famous place of Nex Benedict's horrific death.

About a month ago, I saw "Celeste" in a YouTube video about some of the hardest, but most enjoyable, games of all time. I looked it over, it's on sale for $5, and I'm fortunate enough to be able to afford that. So I got it and finished it within 3 days. I instantly recommended it to my brother, who also happens to be a little queer. He loved it too, but I STILL didn't know the backstory behind that game. Then, I saw the video. It was an amazing reading of Celeste, down to every minor detail of the game. One thing that stood out, was the fact that the both the creator, and the protagonist, were trans women. Even better: it was known for being a wonderful story of the trans experience, and I RELATED TO IT. EVEN BETTER: I had now recommended it to practically my entire friend group, including some incredibly religious people. So what was I gonna do about it? Not care, and continue onto the B-sides.

I want to say 5 days ago was when it really kicked in that "wait a minute, I related to Madeline in a very deep way, and she's a trans..." Now this is the climax, get ready. Because I had been journaling for so long, I had already written about my experience since those early days where I had that so-called dysphoria. And after I realized that could be because I'm trans, I immediately asked my parents what my girl names were before I was born. (doctors didn't know my sex until about two weeks before I was due) "Eden" is a pretty cool name, I guess I'll try it. I walk into my dad's office (works from home) that same day after school, and he immediately turns to me and asks: "So why did you need to know your girl names?" I immediately respond with "... idk?" Very convincing, well done. I text him after I flee to my room, "I'm experimenting, don't take that too seriously" He understands, and I'm at peace. Mom also takes it well, and we're good to actually begin the experiments I was "planning".

First up, change the online bios, like Discord. See how it actually looks on me. AAAAND my best friend sees it within a few hours. Not even prompted, we were talking, playing rocket league, and he just "hey why's your bio say you're experimenting with 'Eden' as your new name?" Explained, but he was in a weird spot. "I'm happy and will support you with whatever you **choose**." Key word there, I'm not choosing anything. I'm actually going with the flow so much more than he could imagine. But okay, we've got a pretty good ally on our side! Going great.

Except here comes "Part of Me" with the anxiety of what could happen, why I shouldn't do anything different around peers, and more importantly why I shouldn't experiment with myself. And to be honest, I believe that part of me. There's so many questions that I ask like "but what if it's all for attention?" or "but you always acted like a boy, why are you changing now? or "maybe the other Christians were right. you are a sinner after all, you're a bad person and you DO deserve to die." You know those.

And with those come the questioning part of it. Am I ACTUALLY just doing what I'm doing for attention? Like I said, I'm a high schooler. I'm a future aerospace engineer for SpaceX, I love computers, and I have top 1% test scores as a sophomore. I'm doing good with school, but that's exactly why I basically have one friend who is also up there with me. I'm not here to brag, I'm here to show that I don't get a lot of attention at school, it's basically all family members who care about me. So again, am I just trying this for attention? I don't think so, but that seems like what my brain would want me to say.

And to be honest, I needed this. I vent every day, but to nobody except Google advertisement algorithms out of Google Docs (my journal). I vent and cry into empty space, but maybe this is finally not just to my phone. This is to another human who I think has had a close experience to mine.

And of course I'm not going to ask you "who am I, who do I like, and what's my gender?" But I am going to ask you one thing: What's your take? I mean this is the trans experiences blog, but I'm not sure if I am a trans. I figured this was the best place to get a good use out of my time. Thank you so much for letting people like me do this, it seriously means a lot.

i'm glad that you feel that this is a space where you can comfortably talk about your experience, and question your gender. My advice, is to keep experimenting,and see where it takes you find out what you're comfortable with, it might take time, and it might change. It took me a while to get to where i am now, and even now i'm not 100% sure. i tried different labels that felt right at the time, but they changed later, and thats okay.

[zethsmo]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ introduction *ೃ༄

heya!!! I just noticed i’ve never made an intro for my tumblr, so here i am !! You can call me Ethan / Zeth / Zara, I’m a teenager, I go by any pronouns, I’m an aroace lesbian, I am genderqueer, my mbti is infp/intp, and i am an artist! (self taught)

■ Socials ::

✦ Tiktok (multi) [ @zethsmo ]

✦ Tiktok (JC avatar) [ @zethansm ]

✦ Instagram (multi) [ @zethansm ]

■ More about me ::

✦ I am a multi/rarepair/crackshipper so don’t be surprised if you see some content of that nature lol

✦ I am definitely big on making queer and race headcanons for characters

✦ I’m pretty openminded with ships and relationships between fictional characters (if they’re not proships of course) like for example i like [these characters] as a romantic pairing, i also like them as friends, platonic partners etc. (I like aus what can i say)

✦ I have liek,,, multiple personas that depict my different personalities and it’s also like life lore i think it’s neat

✦ The content i post is (of course) my art, sometimes i post skits that i made for tiktok

✦ I wear glasses!! (astigmatism), I am anemic, I have synesthesia and i am definitely an avid maladaptive daydreamer

✦ I got two cats!!! they’re both ginger and i love them veryy much

✦ I joke around a lot and a lot of the stuff i say shouldn’t be taken seriously (unless if im using /srs) I’m just a sarcastic person in general

✦ I get obsessed with a piece of media every two weeks like,, every two weeks its a new thing and you can clearly tell what i am currently into depending on my profile picture, the drawings i post etc. (also a heads up for those who follow me for content from a certain fandom, i switch interests very often !!)

✦ Avid kids shows/movies watcher (to be fair i guess i am said shows/movies’ target audience)

► Favs // Likes

✦ Green, Blue, Red, Purple

✦ Paleontology, Archeology, Zoology, Meterology, Geology, Animal biology, Anthropology, Ancient history

✦ Parasaurolophus, Therizinosaurus, Quetzalcoatlus, Cats, Spiders

✦ Drawing, Reading, Sculpting, Painting, Watching tv shows/movies, Listening to music, Journaling, Having discussions about my interests

► Fandoms / Media i enjoy ::

✦ James Cameron’ avatar, The last kids on earth, How to train your dragon, Tales of arcadia, Arcane, Sweet tooth, The Spiderverse, Jurassic park, Carmen Sandiego, Hello neighbor, Bendy and the ink machine, All tomorrows, The hollow, Glitch techs, Salad fingers, Sally face, Minecraft, Minecraft story mode, Team fortress, Kindergarten, Among the sleep, Dinner with an owl, Granny, 60 seconds, Young sheldon, The fancy pants adventures, The willoughbys, Dan the man, Raising dion, Coraline, Kubo and the two strings, Paranorman, Boxtrolls, Missing link, Draw a stickman, Total drama, Nanny mcphee and the big bang, My dad the bounty hunter, The amazing adventures of morph, I have no mouth and i must scream, Jelly jamm, Charlie and lola, Shaun the sheep, Sarah and duck, Monster house, Baldi’s basics, Clangers, Mister maker, Pocoyo, In the night garden, Twirlywoos, Wooly and tig, Timmy time, Go jetters, Om nom, little misfortune, Franbow, Ice age, Gorillaz, Wreck it ralph, Mr bean, Dibo the gift dragon, Pink panther, Canimals, The good dinosaur, The croods, Minions/Despicable me, Rio, Little nightmares, Anpanman, Dumb ways to die, Atlantis the lost empire, Big hero 6, Tarzan, Megamind, Corpse bride, The nightmare before christmas, Spies in disguise, Luca, Book of life, Klaus, Oggy and the cockroaches, The sea beast

► Music artists i listen to ::

✦ Lisa ono, Hana Stretton, Gorillaz, The ink spots, Slaywitme/siouxxie sixxsta, Freddie dredd, Ella fitzgerald, Yameii online, C2d, Ayzha nyree, Amaarae, Kanii, monte booker, MF DOOM, Lil uzi, Kali uchis, Rico nasty, Cochise, JELEEL, Bktherula

■ DNI ::

✦ Basic dni criteria

✦ Anti xeno/neopronouns, Anti multishipping/crackshipping, NSFW accounts

✦ Gorillaz shippers, Carmen Sandiego x Graham Calloway shippers

[messinwitheddie]

Dib "Pretty sure that's everything you brought with you from Cali and whatever you wrote while you lived with us. Dad has literally never touched any of our bedrooms since we moved out. It's kind of sweet, but also kind of creepy."

Squee "I can't believe he didn't throw all of my old journals out. I thought about throwing them out a thousand times."

Reg "Glad you didn't now, hu?"

Squee "Sort of. I'm not sure how useful any of this will be to Dipper, but-"

Dib "I think he just wants a second opinion-- like a beta reader. He over thinks everything every step of the way."

Squee "So you recommend ME to help ghost write the fourth journal?"

Dib "It's the perfect side project for you, trust me."

Squee "Yeah, maybe. It's a lot of pressure."

Dib "Only if you psych yourself out over it. Just enjoy the experience. You owe it to yourself."

Squee "I haven't dedicated any significant time or energy into writing since high school. Back then, it was just an escape from school bullies and home bully. Mostly fanfiction and campy short horror stories."

Dib "Which were amazing, I read them. So, keep writing. Don't let the sucky people that got in your way over a decade ago stop you from doing something awesome you want to do now. I was bullied for my interests and look at me, still chasing the paranormal... when free time permits me."

Reg "You were bullied in school too?"

Dib "Yeah, big time."

Reg "By WHO?"

Dib "Pretty much everyone; other kids, teachers, your grandad on occasion, your aunt Gaz-"

Reg "Really?"

Squee "She can bully with the best of them if you push her buttons right."

Reg "Wow."

Dib "Some kids were bigger jerks than others, but I never really found a group of kids I connected with until I met the Pines twins. I rarely left my room without hearing the words "big head" directed towards me."

Reg "But you're big and strong and super science smart. Who would ever screw with you?"

Dib "I was scrawny and awkward right up until my sophomore year of high school. Being... neurodivergent didn't help my case."

Reg "That's not a reason to make fun of someone."

Squee "You're not a bully, that's why you subscribe to that logic. My suggestion, make online friends. That's the beauty of the internet."

Reg "I know technically I have friends, it's just... Is bullying something everyone goes through?"

Squee "I didn't used to think so, but the older I get and the more people I interact with, I realized the answer is yes. Bullying is a learned behavior reinforced by past bullying. Most of the time, if someone is abusing the people around them, in some way, they're being abused themselves. You can't stop bullies from roaming this earth. You can just choose not to be one."

Reg "Is that why dad's a bully now? Because he was bullied when he was a kid?"

Dib "Wait wait wait-- You think I'm a bully? Seriously?"

Reg "You have... bully-like tendencies."

Dib "NO I DON'T. "

Reg "You bully Zim."

Dib "ZIM is an imperialist megalomaniac butt weevil from space! I don't BULLY Zim, I retaliate."

Squee "You bully the interns at the lab."

Dib "Because they're idiots who can't follow directions! Being assertive and expecting my coworkers to focus and not blow anything up doesn't make me a bully."

Reg "You harass your fellow swollen eyeballs."

Dib "Don't even-- I've had to defend my theories and research from oblivious trolls and amateurs trying to pick apart my work every step of the way! Todd, man, tell the boy I'm not a bully."

Squee "You have bully-like tendencies."

Dib "..."

Squee/ Reg "..."

Dib "Okay... nice to know what my big brother and my only son really think of me."

Reg "Dad-"

Dib "No, I get it. It's cool."

Squee "Come on, man-"

*series of high pitched, static and beeping*

Dib "Holy shit, my ghost boxes are going off like crazy. At least the spirits in this house think I'm bearable to be around."

Squee " Wait, Dib, that's probably just Nny-- he'll figure it out."

Reg -sad groan-

Squee "I can't win."

[For context, because my aus are all over the place.

Dib had bought a historically haunted house upstate on an impulse with the intention of ghost hunting with Reg, father and son. However, Reg has decided to go live with his mother on the Von Verminstrasser cryptid nature reservation, virtually crushing Dib's dream.

He rents the house out to the recently married, Squee and Pepito.

Sketched these out on break and lunch throughout last week. Decided to clean them up a little earlier today.]

[imnobodyuknow]

Broadening my horizons a bit...or a lot

So, a friend of a friend of mine recommended a one-season slice-of-life anime after hearing about my love for Non Non Biyori, so I checked it out, and, to put it lightly...it moved me.

Moved me where, you ask?

I call this a slice-of-life anime, but it involves way more than ordinary life for each of its main characters. Sure, there's the drama and angst you'd expect to see in a show about high school girls, but this is one anime that takes their stories much further. (Pun fully intended.)

Having now watched the whole thing, my short takeaway is this: I recommend this show to anyone who enjoys adventure, whether it be an adventure to a new, unfamiliar place, or the adventures that happen in the ordinary parts of life -- new friendships, emotional breakthrough, self-discovery, and so on. 😊

For the longer version, read on.

A Place Further Than the Universe begins with an average second-year high school student, Tamaki Mari (nicknamed "Kimari") who is filled to the brim with curiosity and ambition!

Well...inwardly, at least.

Like many youths, her curiosity and ambition are often dampened (pun unintended this time) by her anxieties and fears. So far, her goals for high school are few and fairly simple: keep a journal, skip school just once, and go on a journey without a plan. But she also has one long-term goal, which she sadly doesn't seem to have made any progress toward:

Can you relate? I know I can.

And like many a high school student, the biggest thing keeping her from reaching her goal isn't a lack of motivation so much a fear of failure.

All too relatable once again, am I right?

This creates an intriguing but kind of ordinary premise, but as it turns out, there's a girl at the very school she goes to who has a very similar goal -- just a bit more...out there, you could say.

Seen by her classmates as a weirdo and given the nickname "Antarctica," this girl has been working part-time jobs and saving money in order to fulfill her dream of going on an expedition to Antarctica, or as her mother described it in the book she wrote...

Roll credits. 😉

Seriously, though, this is quite far from the end of the story -- Kimari briefly crosses paths with this odd girl at a bus depot, where something happens to change both of their futures in a very unexpected way.

After picking up the girl's envelope and attempting to return it to her (but instead losing her), what looked to her like an unfortunate mistake turns out to be a lot more significant.

One million yen worth of significant, it turns out.

Thankfully, Kimari recognized the girl's outfit as her school's uniform, which narrows her identity down slightly, but still doesn't give Kimari and her friend Megumi much to go on.

But as fate would have it...

...just then the girl walks by her in the hallway and enters a bathroom. Kimari follows her there, only to hear her pounding the door of a stall from the inside and whimpering. One can only imagine why... 😐

And that's when a real adventure begins...for both of them.

It turns out Kimari's small act of kindness was enough to save what the girl thought was now a broken dream. Needless to say...

...she's very grateful, to put it lightly. 😄 It's pretty amazing what being the caring type can lead to sometimes, isn't it?

The girl, Shirase Kobuchizawa, explains to Kimari that she has a dream of going to Antarctica (as mentioned before), but not merely for the sake of going. While she was in middle school, her mother was a member of an Antarctic research expedition -- one that she never came back from. She apparently went missing and still hasn't been found...

That's some serious ambition for a highschooler, but you could say it's not too different from Kimari's ambition to make get the most out of her youth, the only real difference being that Shirase has a more concrete plan for achieving her dream.

This brings us back to the million yen Kimari found and returned to her -- her goal in raising all that money was for her planned trip to Antarctica in hopes of finding her mother somehow.

Well, that and another goal.

As you might expect, her strong-willed ambition leaves quite an impression on young Kimari.

Megumi, however, is less impressed by Shirase's ambition, seeing her outlandish goal (no pun intended) as nothing but a flight of fancy.

Nonetheless, Kimari's inspiration leads her to encourage Shirase, as well as to open up to her about her bad habit of quitting her goals out of fear, and how much respect she has for someone as determined as Shirase is to do something so extraordinary, even with so many people telling her it's impossible.

She even goes the extra mile by asking Shirase if there's any way she can help her. That's when Shirase surprises her by asking her to go...somewhat further than that.

She offers Kimari the chance to prove how serious she is about helping her by telling her to meet her Saturday at Kure Port, where she hopes to find an Antarctic survey ship. So now the question becomes this: Does a girl who wants to get the most out of her youth but struggles to find the courage to do anything outside her comfort zone have it in her to go on a trip to a place so far away from home that it might as well be on a different planet (or at least make the attempt)? Or will she give in to her fears like before? This isn't your typical high school adventure, after all.

I could tell you...or you could find out for yourself! The first episode is free to watch on YouTube, after all, so...

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................Aw, what the heck? 😄

Another small act of courage from Kimari becomes another big step toward fulfilling her and Shirase's respective dreams, as well as building a strong friendship between the two of them.

And as suggested in the show's intro, their journey leads to more than just new surroundings -- they also meet a couple of new faces along the way.

What happens after that? I'm afraid that's something you will have to see for yourself. Definitely worth it, though, believe me. 😉

So, why am I going on so much about the show's first episode (and practically giving away the whole plot)? It's just that beautiful, for one thing. 😊 But having seen the entire series now, I can say with certainty that the first episode provides a good taste of what you'll get if you decide to watch the rest, and that the quality of the dialogue, plot development, and humor only get better as you watch. That was my experience with it, at least, and if you decide to watch the first episode, like what you see, and want to explore the rest of this series (pun fully intended this time), I hope it will be yours as well. 🥰

But besides being a great story of four (mostly) ordinary young women going on a journey to a faraway place, as well as a number of inward journeys, what really struck me was how seamlessly the story develops as they travel from the familiar sights of their home country to the unfamiliar, rather than staying one place. I can't imagine the challenges involved in writing a story that merges character development with a stark change in scenery, but Atsuko Ishizuka, and Jukki Hanada pulled it off somehow, and for that, they and everyone who took part in creating this short series have my eternal gratitude. 😁

Whew... All right, now that the gushing's over, it's on to my thoughts on the series as a whole:

In terms of a fun, charming cast of characters with diverse personalities:

In terms of hilarious, and relatable dialogue between them:

In terms of raw emotion:

In terms of beautiful and engaging music:

In terms of gorgeous scenery:

In terms of decency:

(It's decent enough for an anime, but I've still gotta point out some light language and suggestive stuff sprinkled in here and there.)

And finally, in terms of exploring what can be achieved when friendship, cooperation, courage, determination, and human ingenuity are pushed to the limit:

I could go on and on about what I love about this series -- its simplicity, its relatability, its charm, its depth, and so on -- but that would take an eternity, and it already feels like I've spent one putting this essay together, so I'll just conclude by saying this: An anime of this quality (or even just a story of this quality) is quite a rare thing these days. I couldn't be happier that it was made in my lifetime. 😊